Ahhhllison

I should really go to bed sooner, because I have awful mood swings late at night. I'm so happy to be home, finally, but at the same time, I'm sad that I have to deal with everyone.

I'm going to Orlando with my three best friends and a day after, I'm going to be going to camp which is my favorite place in the whole world. I know things change, and I'm really scared that everything's going to be different when I come back.

I guess I sorta think people might forget about me or become better friends with other people, and I don't know what I'd do if I lost either of them as a best friend. I can already tell that I'm not as close to her as before...We haven't talked in a couple of days because neither of us are around much, I guess.

I've also found it impossible to be happy for others success. I want my friends to be happy, but when they are, I get insanely jealous.

I just need a hug.
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I was going to post that on Myspace, but it got to be way too emo to post there.